mix-tape mix-taste and a rant

ima be posting the mixtape playlist in a couple of weeks. i just gotta take a drivers course. haha. that has nothing to do with the mixtape. i will continue to bring up the idea for the mixtape and if you are interested. comment the posts that talk about it. this one is gonna be good. maybe ill hook you up with goodies if you show some love.
also, if there is a song that is defining your fall season. tell me about it. ill take it in and let it make magic all over the walls. something to expect from a potential hard copy

its not like i want to get away because of something i hate. although, im not a fan of how school feels. i really dont like the culture. i acutally feel like shit when i think about where i am. when i sit and think about where i live, i buggs me. i am stuck on the grid known as on post housing for military families. please dont take me as unappreciative. i love my mother. she has done so much for me. i honestly wish she didnt live on post. i wish none of them did. they should all have houses on the beach or ontop of hills becuase of the kind of effort they put in for this country. but eh, this is how it happened. and we are gonna face it til we are ready to move on.
i want to leave. i cant really justify why i want to. at least not in a logical way. like, i really like how that field looks, it meets the sky perfectly. logically, i dont have a good reason. i dont plan to build a house on that land. there is no growth for me in that location. i am perfectly satisified with looking at it. even for a couple seconds. i wont get bored or think on it too long. just enough to develop a feeling. and with this town ive developed the feeling. i do not plan to explain myself. this place doesnt feel good and the idea of the pacific north west does. maybe when i get there ill end up changing my mind. but i am positive that there is more growth, especially compared to here.
im ranting like hell. fuck it.

and the reasons keep pileing in

so today, i went to pick up my little sister from school. the drive is about 20 min there and 20 min back and sometime between this 40 minute time span, a few people decided to fire some rounds at innocent people. us driving had no word of the sort.
we pulled up to the gate, where i flash my military dependant id at the guard to get let onto post, and were let in just as usual.
into our neighborhood. we pull into the drive way and get out. as we walk through the back gate, sirens take over the airspace.
our neighbors start to slowly walk out of their houses to listen in.
Listen to this audio clip now.
We were all very confused. One lady said there was a shooting and to go inside and watch the news.
Woah. Surprisingly enough, in the town i live in, people were being killed, by other people. I am, at this moment, still under lock down.
If you listened to the audio clip, than you have heard what has been repetitively playing from the trees and through the streets of my neighborhood for the past two hours.
They are soldiers and they were upset. there is no justification for what they've done and are still doing but the motives, im sure, go deep.



I am going to move to the pacific northwest very soon.